This past weekend I played Dance Central 3 with my husband. The sad thing is I only did one song, Boom Boom Pow and well that was the end of me. It was a ton of fun and I totally out danced my husband who thinks he is amazing. But of course I pretty much died, I couldn't breathe and seconds later I was hunched over on the floor in pain. At the time I didn't think it was too bad actually, I just took some pain medication and went to bed. I guess I can not be a dance star after all :). Well the following days were horrible. I had terrible chest pain and was taking pain medication every four hours just to try and keep the pain under control. I held strong for as long as I could but finally Wednesday I had a friend take me to the ER by my house. After labs, chest x-ray and an abnormal ekg they called Cleveland to ask what to do. I could tell the doctor was a little nervous, she hugged me and said she would make sure to ease the pain. I at this point was in tears. After holding it all in and trying to be strong the flood gates opened and out came the tears. They gave me 4mg of morphine and zofran to help with the pain and nausea. after thirty minutes the pain was still present so they gave me another 4mg of morphine. If you know me you know I get a little loopy and drowsy with pain medication. After all they had given me I was a complete mess and soon was sound asleep. They came back in and gave me some iv lasix per Cleveland's request, some food and told me they would be sending me home within the hour.
The one thing about having heart failure and this whole transplant thing is the pain is excruciating. Not to mention when you try to explain what it feels like you can never find the right words to explain how it really feels. It's just hard to explain. On top of all the pain I am always retaining fluid so I can't breathe either. Just a vicious cycle that never seems to end. The topping on the cake is this phrase "I'm sorry but this is what you will have to deal with until you are transplanted.", "It only gets worse before it gets better." REALLY?!? Well that sucks!
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